Little Things

You know, contentment is such an intangible thing. I mean, what makes us content? How do we know when we are content? I think a lot of people mistake happiness and contentment. And granted, the two are definitely interrelated. But contentment usually comes first, not happiness.
I've been thinking about contentment this week because I have been feeling extraordinarily so. And there are lots of little things contributing to that. Things like waking up early to these perfectly peaceful mornings. Having my devotions. The success of the bakery at this stage. Getting into a routine and gradually ticking things off my "to do" lists. Having (making) time to do my course work. Getting to know people at church and at the market.
But none of these in and of itself provides contentment. And really, I have plenty of reasons to be discontent, the whole chronic illness and pain being one, being far away from much of my family is another.
The Bible commands us to be thankful always. And Paul said that he had "learned" to be content. I see so many people who aren't really content, but most of those same people aren't thankful for what God has given them. It isn't what they expected. It isn't the way they expected. They still have problems in their life. It isn't when they expected.
And in case you are wondering, yes, I am looking at myself. I've struggled with all of these things. And sometimes still do. But I do continually take it back to the Lord and recognize His sovereignty. And then I come and take it back and we do it over again. And again. And again. :| I've definitely improved in some areas, and some areas are probably going to take years more of work (oh joy. :| ). But for today, I am content. And I am grateful for that. I know that there are areas where I could be more content (and I am ignoring those right now, thank you very much!).
I am enjoying the contentment, and the happiness that comes with it. It is good to know that it is possible to feel this way (thanks God!).